Feed others and God will feed you!

It is very easy to get confused by your own poverty. It’s very easy to get bogged down in my shortcomings, especially if I still compare myself to other people. Remember that when you compare yourself to others, there will always be those who have more and do more. They are better than me, prettier, more resourceful and happier than me. And then it remains to plunge into despair and lay down arms like that widow from Zarephath. And instead of looking for God, have a script ready: this is the end, time to die.

Today there is a word for such people who, instead of putting Christ in the center, put their shortcomings there. It seems that God wants to tell me today: Wojtek, you have little but give it to me! Feed the others and I will feed you.

It is in this spirit that I read today’s first reading (1krl 17.10-16). It is an invitation to let me see that I do have something and share it with others. What do I have? I have a life, a Passover experience, I can love and I know that the Lord is with me. That’s a lot, especially if I look around, I see a lot of wounded, lost and in fact zombies. People plunged into hopelessness, frustration and despair. And I? And despite my poverty, I get up in the morning and I know what for! I have a roof over my head, friends and family. I read the meaning every moment of my life, hope, faith and love. I have bread that I feed on. And if not bread, then at least bread products. And why not share it? And this is what God invites me to do.

Everything is nice, beautiful, but how do I see my bread or these products? It is often difficult for me to see the good that is in me. And even more so I do not know what and how can I feed others? And here God sends us prophets every day, just as he sent Elijah to the widow. This prophet may be my loved ones who ask me for help with the house. Maybe it is a wife who, tired after working on a double job (home + work), wants to be at least once washed after dinner. It may be someone who asks us for help, devoting a little time to him. Maybe it’s someone who needs our attention and comfort. And these are requests addressed to us at a time when the last thing we dream about is fulfilling them. Because I’m sad, tired, I don’t want to feel bad, I’m depressed myself and I need consolation, hope, understanding, time. And God says: good, you are bad, you are hungry but “do not be afraid, go do as you said, but first make a flatbread for me and bring it to me. And you will do it afterwards. ” Feed others and God will feed you. Because you’ll see that in some weird way what you’ve got seems like something pretty big now, and what’s more, it’s not running out of time!

The last months, weeks, days are a difficult time for me to struggle with life. I seem to have little. It seems to be wrong and there is nothing else to do but capitulate. On Friday, I shared my life story with patients suffering from PID in Wrocław. The trip to Wrocław was difficult, especially since I had a hard and sleepless night. I didn’t feel like going, let alone talking to people. I really dreamed of going to bed, covering with a duvet and falling asleep. But the Lord rewarded me for the effort and self-denial, in one, extremely sincere thank you, to one of the ladies suffering from PID. After the whole session I was extremely exhausted but happy! On the train, on the way back, I thanked God that although my life seems hard, I can lighten their darkness for others. And to say that the disease is not the end, that you can live a good life with it. I have met a prophet! I met the second prophet yesterday. In a conversation that I didn’t want to do, I heard that I brought joy and a smile to this person. You really fell asleep better knowing that you are an advocate of hope and joy for someone.

And it is like that every day! We get such prophets every day. It’s just that we don’t always see them, or we don’t want to see them. We prefer to feel sorry for ourselves and wait for “death”. We prefer to see the tip of our own nose rather than our neighbor next to us. We are afraid to lose what we have, even if it is only time and a bit of effort. As a result, our suffering becomes more and more painful and unbearable. We prefer to see our own hunger and our own shortcomings. We prefer to blame others because that is jealousy and comparing ourselves to others. The hunger does not go away, on the contrary, we are getting hungry more and more. Feed the others and God will feed you!

The Widow of the Gospels (MK 12: 38-44), Jesus liked that she had given everything she had. And she had very little. It was ridiculous money. What a shame she must have felt as she stood by the treasury box and the priest spoke aloud the value of her offering. We can imagine what the woman was thinking, what the priest and the people around were thinking. After all, they saw and heard how much the others were throwing. And they threw large sums in, the widow only had two. How great a humiliation that must have been for her. Nevertheless, she overcame all fears and gave God as much as she had. She gave everything!

And that’s what God expects from each of us. Give Him everything we have! He expects us to deny ourselves, cross ourselves, and take up our own cross. If this is not the case, our prayers for change, retreats, and contributing will be useless. Holding positions and winning honors. If we do not stop using God as a means to an end, we will be hypocrites. If we do not give Him everything we have, we will always be hungry. If we just stop taking but start giving as well, we’ll be full!

Feed others what you have, even if it’s only two coins and others have more. Don’t look at what others have. Because they may not have love in their action and are hypocrites, but you have love! Give it away and God will feed you!

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